What do you do when you’re having a meltdown at 3 am in the morning? I don’t know I haven’t had one…yet. But I have been frustrated.
Now that I was three months into the semester, I could have days where things were frustrating. One week, I was frustrated and exhausted. I was not eating a lot, and I felt like I was not making any progress not only in Chinese class but also in the language overall. At times, it felt like I was just spinning my wheels or my brain did not turn on that day. Somedays, I wanted to climb a mountain to scream my lungs out. When I am frustrated, I am frustrated with myself. There are several things I like to do when I am frustrated or feeling down, I chat with my parents, I dance or do some exercise, and I make other people smile. All of these things make me feel better. If I still feel frustrated, it means I need to change something. I had to change something, so I started small, and that weekend, I decided to stay in my dorm to regroup. I got 11-plus sleep and felt renewed afterward. I could eat full meals again and felt like I was making progress in Chinese class.
